Discovery

Somebody smack me if I get too crazy about the whole food business. I was telling one of the girls here at work today about how she has to watch Food Inc because it will make her look at food in a different light. As I was explaining to her some different scenes in the movie she was totally grossed out and said that she couldn’t eat again after watching that and I told her that was the point. I also told her about an experiment that Jamie Oliver did on his show with the elementary aged kids, showing them how chicken carcasses are processed to make chicken nuggets and just how disgusting it really is. I may seem to be taking this whole thing a little bit overboard but I am just going to chalk it up to still being in the discovery phase. I am still learning new things everyday and am eager to share those tidbits of information with those around me and especially with those I love. I can’t stand to see McDonald’s killing my mom and it drives me insane that she would say “I know it’s not good for me but it tastes good”…that’s the point, that’s what they want you to say!!
I guess my whole mindset is changing from needing to buy weight watchers meals and “low calorie, healthy” processed foods to needing to fill myself with whole fresh fruits and veggies and homemade as much as possible. I want to cleanse my body from the years of abuse and toxins that I have filled it with.
Since I was lazy last night and didn’t give my body the exercise that it needs I am going to go tonight and have an extra long session. I like going to the Y on Friday nights because it is so quiet. Last week I went on a Friday and when I got there it was just me and 2 other people so I had my run of the place. I could try new things without looking like a fool. I hate trying new things when I think other people are watching me and laughing on the inside. I know they watch because I am a people watcher and besides, what else is there to do when you are stuck on an elliptical machine for ½ an hour? Last week I tried a few things on the Bosu ball only to find that I don’t quite have the coordination that it takes to stand on that thing with one foot. It was probably quite the comedy to watch! I gave up after only a few tries. Maybe if it’s quiet I will try again tonight. Maybe I can even talk Elizabeth into coming with me tonight. I love to see my baby girl working the weight lifting machines. She can be a real beast when she wants to. The kids hate going to the Y and it’s not that they hate the exercise because once they get there they are totally enthusiastic, I think it’s just the thought, the idea of it all. Exercise is, after all, a four letter word in the child mind. That is why PE is all about games and sports and not sit-ups and calisthenics like it used to be. I, personally, am an adrenaline junkie so exercise is perfect for me. Getting those endorphins pumping through my body, when you are done you just feel soooo good!
Tomorrow is my weigh in day. I give myself a quick workout before stepping on the scale. I can’t wait to see what is in store for me and I promise not to be disappointed if the scale only moves a few ounces. It’s hard to not put that kind of pressure on yourself especially when you have a goal that you are working towards. I can see the end result, I was there not too long ago, and I know how it feels, I can almost touch it in my mind. I have that little black dress hanging up in my closet waiting patiently for the day I can slip it on and watch my husbands eyes pop out of his head. In the meantime I hope to form new habits and a new way of life, not just for me, but for my whole family. Hopefully my discovery phase will rub off on them and not just pass them by!


-- on the move....Shawnna